Fantasy isn’t always imagined

Just another WordPress.com weblog

I wanted an angsty title, but nevermind… July 30, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — Pamela @ 12:00 am

You know how some people say words hurt. Oh god, they do. And for the love of god, please do remember this- words can break a heart. You know it, you’ve mention this before, but you still had to do it.

And being wronged is another thing altogether. Although they are inter connected in some way or another. My heart broke, but I’ve mended it back already. The cuts are still there, you know. Will you fix them for me? Probably not. There are so much more stuff in your mind…

I’m not angry with you, neither am I disappointed. I’m just sad; heartbroken. Sad that that’s what I’m like in your eyes. Not that it doesn’t pain me enough to… Ah nevermind. Not saying here, at least. But you’ll never, ever understand.

Maybe, in the context of Wong Kar Wai’s theme of time, I’ve made a wrong decision is the past. I’ll live with it, I’ll move on from it. It’s hard to express what’s deep in the heart. Maybe it’s meant to stay in there forever?

No, I dont think so. I’ll share it with the person who matters most in future, I guess. But not now, not now.

How long does it take for sorrow to fade away?

P.S. You is relative.

 

And so they say… July 29, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — Pamela @ 12:59 am

王家衛- I love the way he portrays his themes in his films. Especially the theme of time.. Its such a basic subject matter we face with everyday and during the course of life, but sometimes don’t know how to express it. 王家衛 was able to place these themes under a microscope for us to feel, think and understand better.. There are something to take away from his themes, as well as better understand the situation HK-ners feel. I’m rushing on a thesis essay now, perhaps when I have the time I’d love to explain his themes here :P

Anyways, people say life is a marathon. Likened to it, 6 months of this semester is marathon too, then. We’ve sprinted when we needed to, took a break when the body calls for it, and now I think it’s time to sprint the last lap. Just a little more and we’ll make it. A little more push. We’re tired, but we’ll nonetheless try. Its a race worth running for.

Alright, back to work. I just happened to miss my blog, so I’m here to write a little something. So much on my mind, I’ll pen them down when I have a little more time.

P.S You is relative.. still.

Marathon6PR916071

Here is a nice photo of Wong’s film In the Mood for Love I saw on the net.. enjoy:

2722874754_fb63512d35

 

I’d say “I love you.” July 27, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — Pamela @ 7:43 pm

Sometimes in life, we are made to endure so many forms of regret. Regret that we did not make full use of a situation, regret that we we did not do what we should have done, and regret that we did not treasure what we’ve had.

My friend asked me what would I have said to my great grandmother should she have still alive.. Counting on the regrets I’ve faced, and the want for her only after her death, I’d say: I love you. I dont recall ever saying that to her. In fact, I dont recall ever saying these to my grandparent, my parents, my sister, my cousin, my friends and people in my life. Perhaps saying “I hate you” is much easier than saying “I love you”, though what we really meant was “I love you”. Yes, action speaks louder than words. Much louder. But sometimes, words do make a difference too <3

Not wanting to live with the regret of missing the moments I could have spent with my family members, when my grand aunty came over to my grandparents house today, I went over to say hi. I was darn tired. Sleeping in the bus till I drool. But that’s beside the point. I was so tempted to just go home, bathe and do my assignments. But I don’t want to feel the same way towards my grandauntie and granduncle the same way I did to my great grandmother. Though we are not that close, I haven’t seen her for ages, and after all, we’re family. Blood joins us together. She’s aged a lot though. But I guess that’s a process we’ve all got to accept. That’s life, as it is.

Anyways, I’m still thinking how strange life is. So much to be explored, so much to be explained. I’ll continue searching.

P.S. You is relative.

 

I find myself missing you suddenly July 25, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — Pamela @ 1:02 am

I had some conversation not too long ago, and it made me miss my late great grandmother. Not that heart broken kind of miss, neither was it the full-of-regrets kind of miss. I wasn’t sad. In fact, I was happy. I was happy I had her as a great grandmother. I was glad for the memories I had with her. I was thankful for the time spent with her. My dear great grandmother. How I miss her, how I love her. And how joyful am I for having such a wonderful lady to have spent much of my childhood with me.

We didn’t meet every day. In fact, she lived in another country. But my childhood are filled with the memories of her by my side that it seemed that we lived together. I remember the times Mel and I hugged her because we were scared of the thunder. I remember the times when I just came home from school and she began bragging about how well my sister could draw. (-,-) I remember the times when I saw her in her room praying to her God, with those beads and stuff. I remember, when she was sick, how swollen her feet were. She couldn’t even walk. How my heart ached for her. And how I cried my eyes out when I was at her funeral. How I finally realised I’d never see her again. My great grandmother.

That was long ago already. Now, no one hardly speaks about her. Once in a while, maybe. Not much. Most of them saw her departure as a relief. For her. Since she was in great pain due to age. I saw it as a loss. Maybe I was selfish. I wanted her to he here forever. I never wanted her to go. Maybe I didnt care whether she was in pain or not. How selfish. Perhaps it was good she’s in somewhere where no one feels pain right now. I so bet she’s enjoying herself now :) Oh, I bet she is. But though no one in the family speaks of her, I know that they love her. Cheesy, but she is in out hearts. Forever. When I’m old, I’d probably still think of her, and the memories we’ve had together. Maybe the whole family can unite in heaven or something. Together with my friends…

So for my cineto project, a story to be shot on photo slides, I’m going to do the best out of it. In memory of her. I want something so personal to me, something that represents her in my life. Something that she’d be proud to see me make. I’m sure she will.

Oh god, I’m crying already. Great grandma, if you could hear me now, I just want to say, I love you. I always will. <3

P.S. there are many forms of love in this world.

 

Disney’s songs are Sad… July 20, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — Pamela @ 3:18 am

I used to Love Disney songs, ’cause they sound like ‘happily ever after, forever’ kind of feel. But once I really made the point to listen to the lyrics carefully, and I came to understand that their songs are not all about princess, princes, little maidens in forests etc, but some of the songs do have lyrics that speak a lot of the human soul and mind. They explain certain feelings we have but don’t know how to express, they reflect certain pains we see in society that many don’t seem to realise, they point out certain aspects of life we fail to reflect upon.

One of my favourite is Hakuna Matata, go check that song out. The song seems so catchy, fun and funny even, but if you do listen carefully to the lyrics, you can definitely spot certain elements in the song that reflect alot about society. Like how a ‘name’ by itself is meaningless, and how kids are not ’supposed’ to be exposed to things like the word “retarded”. Its worth the time, really.

Here is Shooting Star, from the film Hercules. Read the lyrics, they mean so much to me. You may think that there are so many people around you, but sometimes, really, you are all alone. I dont know if this is an aspect of life, I dont know if everyone goes through it, but it is definitely something I can really feel. And it’s something my heart breaks for.

Everyone has already found somebody.

I think god likes to play around with my life.

SHOOTING STAR

No one seems to think too much of me here
And they’re glad to tell it to my face
And they’re right I’m not supposed to be here
I’m completely out of place
Somehow there has got to be a reason
Evenings as I try to think it through
There’s a bolt from the blue

And I see a Shooting Star
Set apart from all the rest
While the other stars are standing still
He’s on a quest
Every night this shooting star
Darts across the twilight sky
Cause he knows he doesn’t quite fit in
And he’s longing to know why

I feel so much better when it’s night-time
That’s when I can sort of disappear
When the sun has set in it’s the right time
For pretending I’m not here
Sometimes I just stare up to the heavens
Wondering if the answer is inside
That’s when I see the light

Of myself that shooting star
On his way to who knows where
He’s the one like all the stars
He outshines up there
And the solitary star
Is an awful lot like me
On an endless search through time and space
For a place that won’t seem wrong

If we both hang on for long enough
If we both somehow are strong enough
We’ll find out where we belong

Ev’ry night this shooting star
Darts across the twilight sky
Cause he knows he doesn’t quite fit in
And he’s longing to know why

You don’t want to die, but sometimes, you just want to disappear for a while.

P.S. You is relative

 

Woohoo July 13, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — Pamela @ 4:19 pm

RAY ROCKS

 

When dawn appeared at dusk July 13, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — Pamela @ 2:09 am

Its me again.

I can feel the cool breeze in my room. It’s a time when everyone’s asleep- your family members, your dear friends, your pets… And its the time when you feel like you’re the only one left on earth… To each his own, this can welcome a feeling of serenity, or it can evoke an emotion of fear… Well, to each his own..

Sometimes, miracles come in the form of time. Things happen just when you need it to. And then, you go on to realise it ain’t that special after all. And then you’re back to the lonely road again, hoping for something to pop out from somewhere. Then maybe you’ll smile a little more..

My feelings these months can be summarised in the experience of the nail.

First, it was a feeling of sudden shock. I don’t know what went wrong. I don’t know why.

Then, it was the feeling of fear. Fear of what’s going to happen. Fear of the future.

Next, it was the pain I felt. The understanding of what had occurred, and the pain of it. The sorrow, and the regret.

Now, it is the feeling of the longing for things to be over, soon. It’s no longer pain, there’s no more shock. It’s just the understanding that what has happened, happened. And the want for time to pass on, quickly, so the wounds will heal. So the days of fear will fade, and perhaps, just perhaps, some smile will surface. Real smile, that is…

Ah crap, enough of this shit. Anyways, I had this new revolution of film and digital. And I’m pretty proud of my final resolution regarding my view on the medium of image capturing. Will post them here soon. Test is tomorrow. Good night. Or rather, morning.

P.S. You is relative

Pamela~

 

When you are not what you think you are… July 13, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — Pamela @ 1:17 am

Sometimes, I think it’s finally over. I thought I was brave enough.

But other times, I realised that it isnt really done yet. I realised I was dumb.

Now, I’m scared, because I don’t exactly know what I’m thinking.

I failed to be what I thought I was.

The worst was over. Perhaps? But I know what lies ahead is going to be far more painful than what I thought it would be.

Because what lies beneath the mask is the feeling that comes from within. Real fear reveals when the mask is removed.

It’s painful, and I’m scared. I dont know whats before me…

They say that in life, whats yours, is yours. But I can’t even look ahead, how am I know know what’s mine before me?

The dawn’s breaking in a couple of hours, I guess it’s time to put on the mask again.

I’m truly scared.

Will you please be there for me?

But, you, is relative.

I’m still scared :’(

P.S. You’ll catch me when I fall? Then again, you, is relative.

Sighs.

 

The ‘Happy’ Incident with the Nail July 11, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — Pamela @ 12:26 am

A nail japped into the sole of my feet. Damn.

This Tuesday, Sal was going to somewhere in Sengkang to collect ome props for the AFP shoot. So, I tagged along, together with Mud, James, Adrian, and Kelvin. While under the HDB flat of the prop owner, Sal and Mud had to play around with the baseball -.- And with Sal’s powerful strength, the baseball flew into some construction site. At first, only Sal and Mud went into the blocked site to find the damn ball, in the dark. Being so damn KPO, i decided to be an angel and help them. It was bloody dark and there were tall grass almost everywhere. Mud even warned us that there might be snakes around. And I thought I was so smart, cause I actually looked up to make sure there were no machines hanging in mid air incase it will suddenly fall and squash us all. Ok, it was safe. So we went on to search for the ball.

Suddenly, I felt a freaking jap on the sole of my feet. I cursed out loud and Mud thought a snake bit me -.- But anyways, I felt that there was some kind of nail at my feet. I wasnt pain the least bit, it felt more like some electirc shock, cause the ‘pain’ was more of shock than bloody pain. I lifted my feet, and the nail (which was hammered into a plank of wood) was still stuck to the sole of my shoe, so I literally lifted the entire plank of wood up with my leg. And then with all my MIGHT, I swung my leg till my beloved sneakers, together with the nail and wood flew to some distant. Then, I dashed to the roadside (where there was a decent amount of light and cemented ground) to sit. James, Mud and Kelvin heard all the screamings and came to check it out…

They told me to take off the sock, but I was soooo afraid to do so, incase my feet became distorted or bleed or whatever that can happen. But I decided I’ll have to do it anyways. The hold, thank GOD, was pretty small. Only that I could feel it pretty deep in. I wasnt crying, no tears came out. But you have no idea how bloody afraid and shocked I was. James told me to squeeze all the blood out, and Mud (aww so sweet) offered me a sweet. Haha! Adrian, my dear IBP producer ran around to find water for me. But at that point of time, I was really, really, scared. And it was starting to become pain. So glad Kelvin and James were there.. Aww, my dear producer and director for IBP.

After much consideration, we decided to go to the doctor. But halfway on the journey in Sal’s car, Sal said that the props were there, and the car was needed. So, we drove back to keep the props. (they were kind of some secret stuff that had to be kept) Sal and the rest then drove me to some clinic nearby to see the doctor. I was hopping around like some mad dog, good thing the guys were there to support me. If not I’d look like some fool. HAHA :)

When it was my turn to see the doctor, Kelvin went into the room first. So I thought, ok, he’s the only one going in. Suddenly, Adrian and James followed in. It was kind of funny, like Kekvin went in, then me, and when I thought it was over, Adrian and James came in too. The doctor in mask asked if that was ok, so I said yes. Adrian said they were my bodyguards. HAHA!

The doctor asked me some basic questions, then asked me if i had a fever. When I said no, he looked at me like I was some fool, trying to make fun of the fact that Im seeing the doctor when I’m well. Then I said that I stepped on some nail, and behind those suspicious mask, I swear I saw him stopping his smile. Damn. He checked my feet, rubbed some cold stuff on it, and opened the gap (not like it wasnt hurting bad enough) to see if there was the nail stucked into my feet. He said it seemed fine, but had to give me a jap incase the nail was rusty. Bugger Kelvin and Adrian told me that he’ll have to inject my feet before I went into the room, so i asked the doctor (half laughing) where was he going to inject me. When he said the arm, I was soooo relieved. But the moment I saw him take out the needle and like tapped it, I freaked out.

James (I think) covered my eyes and Kelvin held on to my shoulder. Adrian said: Do not be afraid. Hahah… When i asked the doctor if it will hurt, he was kind of laughing and said yes. Damn. Some encouragement could help here…… Haha, but he said that if he had said no, it would be a lie. Ok fine, I accepted that. lol!

So in goes the needle. I wonder why it took so long to be in there. I could feel the liquid stuff go into my arm and the coolness of the needle in my muscles. LOL! But anyways, it was over, finally. The doctor took out this cool circle plaster, and I asked him, laughing, if it was for my feet or the injection. He said the feet need no plaster. Later infection HOW!?!?!??!?!

I kind of limpped back to the car, and sweet Sal (and gang) drove me home. Mud (who was drinking mango juice when i was in the doctor) burpped in the car. We were joking that the hole in my feet would grow out some mango tree. HAHA!!

So for the past few days, I went around limping. Dumb friends were laughing -.- Lol. And different lecturers heard different stories of why I limped from my dumb classmates. Haha! Med Law lecturer heard someone stepped on my toe, thats why I limped. AFP lecturer heard that a nail pierced THROUGH my feet, thats why I was limping. I’d probably in some hosptial by then. Haha! And another lecturer called me a ‘crippled’ for fun, after a bunch of classmated called me that. Buggers. Lol. Crazy people <3

But through out the incident, I was laughing most of the time. It was kind of funny, how this entire thing happened. Even now, when I look at the hole and tried to pry it open like the doctor did, I cant stop but laughed too. Kind fo scary… Lol! It was bloody pain, but at the same time, ironically, funny too. I think the only person who didnt laugh was my mom. She had to pay $100 ++ on my medical fees. (went to the doc 2x)

And crap, I missed NAPFA after looking forward to it. Damn.

LOL

P.S. You, is relative

Pam ~~

 

Documentary Reviews July 1, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — Pamela @ 11:59 pm

Just in case I might get into any trouble with… I dont know what… I must say that these reviews are done for my Documentary Class, and they are to be posted in the discussion board. Hope I’m not breaking any rules by posting them here :P hahaha.. Its really long though, hope you’ll enjoy :)
Born Into Brothels

This film inspires me. Sounds weird, but it has shown me a different side of photography. Photography is not all about taking beautiful photos, but about taking pictures that make us feel. Capturing moments that tell a story. Oddly enough, it has also inspired me to be like Zana, in a way, to go to a different country to help the children in need. Maybe because every child deserves a wonderful childhood.

Amazingly colourful, this film brings out the energetic life of the children in the brothel. The bright colours of red, blue, green, yellow, cyan, orange, etc., showed me that the children have all the rights in the world to enjoy their childhood. Them learning photography should have been nothing but fun. However, I felt that certain odd framing and compositions justified that living in the brothels are nothing near fun. In fact, there was a certain disturbing tone, created visually, on little children living in the red light district. I’m glad that the film was not shot too beautifully, that it glorified the fact that the children are children of prostitutes, and that they will probably have to spend all their lives there. Thankfully, there was a balance of both- beauty, that the children are beautiful and their energy and passion are amazing, and ugly, that the children do not deserves to be living somewhere like that. This, I say, is what clever filmmaking is.

I truly admire Briski and Kauffman’s courage and passion on going all out to help the children. It is probably nothing but love that drove them to doing what they did. This humble film connects us so deeply with the children that it hurt me to see the children sad, like when Avijit’s mother passed away, and it brought a smile to my face when the children are happy, like when they went to the beach to play.

This film is nonetheless touching. ‘Aunty Zana’s’ love for the children and vice versa was strongly portrayed in the film. When Briski felt that the children might not be able to go to school, she sincerely went all out to hunt for schools for them. When the children’s photographs were exhibited in India, they had nothing but praises for their ‘Aunty Zana’ and how much they loved her. I clearly remember the scene when the children saw computers in the school; they said that they could now use the computers to email Briski when she is back in the US. It is such love for her from the kids that touched me too.

The film evoked so much of my emotions that I felt as though I knew the children personally, and I hope for all the best for them when the film ended.

One scene that was most memorable to me was when the children went to the beach to play. That was probably the first time they saw the ocean. Contrasting the cramped environment they live in, the children had all the space they wanted in the open sea. And that stroked me that this was the kind of life the children should be having, not living in fear and uncertainty. The kids ran around; they somersault; they splashed water on each other; they laughed really loudly; and they took photographs. I especially loved it when Avijit took a pail filled with water, poured it into the sea, and took a photo of that with his friends playing at the background. That was perhaps the photo I loved the most.

Though the film has ended, the children’s life still continues. They should have been at their teens now. I wonder how are they. I hope they are happy wherever they are, though I know that’s not going to be the case for all.

Brat Camp China

I guess the debate that is going to come out from watching the film is whether we agree with the camp’s way of teaching the children to behave. Do children now a day still learn it the hard way? Or do they need soft coaxing before they really grow. Is the saying ‘spare the rod and spoil the child’ true? Here are some of my opinions, and my thoughts of the pros and cons of the camp.

While I do not completely agree with the way the camp deal with the kids so strictly, I have to say that to a small extent, some children who got out of the camps do learn. Take the boy who likes to cry for example. He learnt it the hard way- he became a better boy. However, there were other teenagers who never learnt. The rebellious boy eventually ran away from the camp, never to be contacted again. The irritating spoilt girl went back to her normal whiny self after getting out of the camp.

The camp does help families in desperate situations. Having the one child policy in China, all parents would want the best for their children. Globalization led to the parents having to work harder, thus having lesser time for the kids. And some kids simply do not listen to their parents. So, desperate times calls for desperate measures, I guess. Brat Camp.

The children enrolled to the camp are taught discipline. Walking hundreds of kilometers, they learn the need to endure, the need to persevere, and the need to accept pain. They probably learn stuff like life is a journey and that we all got to walk it rightly and persevere on. The children also learn from their religion. Memorizing their scriptures, they learn life lessons and how to be a better person on earth. They also learn about their cultural past and their Gods. Doing their own laundry and making their beds also teach the children family responsibility. The children also perhaps learn to appreciate their parents/ maids more. The kids also write their diaries at night. They learn to reflect on their day and learn from mistakes they made. They learn to change their wrongs.

The camp, thus, in a way teaches the children to be better person. In almost all aspects of life, the kids do learn. They are taught about almost everything it takes to be a better child. All, but love.

Perhaps something that makes the camp frowned upon is the lack of love the children in the camp would have. Being thousands of miles from their families and friends, there is bound to be the feeling of abandonment. Also, their ‘teachers’ in the camp isn’t giving them a lot of love either. They are scolded for doing wrong, sometimes even beaten. The lack of love is something human beings should not go through.

This might, on the other hand, make the children rebel even more. Perhaps this is the case for the boy who ran away from the camp, and away from his parents forever. The feeling that no one really cares for them might eventually led the kids think that their parents do not love them, and hate their parents even more.

Also, not receiving love is not good for any individual, whether they are ‘good’ kids or not. Because no one should be deprived of attention and love.

In addition, some children cannot learn things the tough way. Maybe more need encouragement, patience, and understanding when it comes to learning. They need values to be sounded into them, not forced into their brains. And that’s why; going against what the children need might make them rebel even more, or even form the nonchalant attitude in life.

The question of human rights also comes into place. Are the camps handling the kids rightly? Is being forced to walk hundreds of kilometers a day, and treated with little respect right for the kids? What does being ‘deceived’ into the camp make the kids feel any better than their lives? Isn’t it the parents’ responsibility to discipline their child, and not some strangers from a camp whom the kids feel no connections to? I guess these questions will remain unanswered as long as the camp still exist.

Nanook of the North

Made in 1922, it is considered the first documentary ever made. I kind of felt privilege that I could actually see it, considering the fact that it was shot in extreme conditions and preserved for decades.

This documentary, being the first, I must emphasize again, is really impressive. Following the life of Nanook and his family for a year, we learn how the Eskimos trade, how they build their igloo, how they hunt for food, and their very basic ways of living. I especially liked the scene when Nanook’s entire family and their pet dogs squeezed into the kayak. It was pretty funny when they each got out of the boat, one by one, until the last member eventually got out from the inside of the boat.

Having read more about the documentary, I found out that there were many speculations and beliefs that the film was in fact staged. It was said that Nanook hunt with a gun, but to make the film appeal more to audiences and make it more ‘authentic’, the filmmakers asked Nanook to hunt with a spear instead. Also, it was said that Nanook’s wife in the film isn’t really his wife. And people say that many of the incidents were staged. Even at the beginning of the film, there was an inter title to say that Nanook died while hunting after the film was made was apparently fake. It was said that he died due to some other issues.

Upon knowing these claims did make me feel a little disappointed at first. But when I thought about it, I realized that the staged scenes did not make the documentary any less real. Those incidents could have happened in real life, just that it was not captured at the particular point of time. Staging the scenes again gave audiences a better understanding of the Eskimos life. It did not make the film less believable or real. Nanook might have hunted with the gun, but seeing the way he handled the spear show me that he did know how to use it. It was just a decision on his part to change his way of living, Nanook still knew his traditions.

Changing parts of the film a little here and there, to me, was ok. Yes, it did make the film looked a little ‘fake’ when we knew the truth, but it still made us understand the life of an Eskimo more, which is probably the aim of the film. It made the film more enjoyable too. Maybe we have to know that filming in the cold with ‘ancient’ camera and equipments is not the easiest thing to do. Such images and incidents could not have been captured with the technology at that time if not for the filmmakers believe in their work and their perseverance. Also, Nanook’s entire life was not altered. They were simply changed a little and certain scenes staged. The lifestyle of an Eskimo was kept true and honest. That, to me, was the most important factor.

So, I must say I loved the film. It, being a black and white silent film may seem ‘difficult’ to watch for some. But I enjoyed the film from beginning to end, and even would have liked it to be longer. I applaud the filmmakers of Nanook of the North.

Sharkwater

This film was stunningly beautiful. Images of live in the ocean made life on earth seemed dull. Audiences are wowed with images that we never get to see everyday, and probably our lifetime. The bright colours of life in the deep blue gave the ocean another form of life altogether. This is perhaps one of the most beautifully shot underwater film I’ve seen so far.

Stewart and his team are on a mission to save endangered sharks from fishermen in the Costa Rica region. However, due to government politics, long line poaching was ignored, leading to the deaths of many sharks. Because of the high demand for sharks fin, thousands of sharks were killed to keep the consumers satisfied. The government, as well the gang leaders of the shark fin industry is preventing Stewart and his team from saving the sharks, innocent creatures living their once peaceful life in the ocean.

A scene that made an impact on me was when Stewart was in the hospital. This is perhaps one of the most boring looking scenes. No colourful ocean bed, no life in the sea, no conflict with the government. But it was the scene that made me connect with Stewart most. Who have never felt being unable to do something he/she desperately wants to? I was able, to a great extent; understand how Stewart felt at that point of time. And as audience, I wanted him to get well and save the diminishing sharks.

I also loved the scenes when Stewart is in the oceans, playing with the sharks and other sea creatures like one would with farm animals. The sharks swam really close up and started nudging him, as if they were friends. Well, they probably are.

Though beautiful, this film has a disturbing undertone- the murdering of sharks. As mentioned in the film, the sharks are not only animals that are precious to the earth, they form the eco system in the ocean, and their diet of planktons ultimately allows for a balance of oxygen levels in the earth, important for our survival. They aid us in preventing global warming, yet we humans are killing them off by the hundreds to satisfy out selfish wants.

It changed my perspective of the sharks. I’ve heard two sides of the stories. One, that sharks are enemies, and they kill when they can. Two, (a little less heard of), is that sharks only harm when they are threatened. But I’ve only seen sharks attacking humans (in documentaries and feature films) that I tend to side the belief that sharks harm much more than they do in reality. However, after watching the film, I now know that sharks are more of friends than foes. Humans have much more to fear than these gentle creatures. I guess seeing is believing, and I’m glad this film was made.

If I have a wish for the filmmakers, it is that they will continue to persevere on and continue make a difference to the sharks. I have great respect for them and admire them greatly. With the help of people from around the world, the mission can be made possible.

P.S. let’s hope that it will be a dream come true for them to let the film reach China and be in Chinese for the people there.

War Dance

This is a film that probably made everyone cry when watching it. It is moving, yet inspirational at the same time.

Having lost their parents because of the rebel in their own country, the children are forced to live in a camp to survive. In the camp, they practice their traditional music and dance and even formed a love and passion for the arts. Eventually, these kids went to a state in their country to perform for an annual competition. Some even won certain awards, bringing pride to their tribe.

This film is amazingly rich in colours. Shot in the dryer areas of the world, the costumes and decorations in the settings brought up rich colours to the film. It gave so much hope for the kids and their future. Hope that the war will end and that peaceful lives will come again. Also, I especially loved the framings used when the children were dancing/ singing/ playing with their instrument. It gave so much vibe to the movie and every shot seem picture perfect. The compositions were always new and refreshing.

Also, this film is like an MV in itself. Each time the children broke into a dance or played the music, the filmmakers allowed such scenes to extend and play itself out. Audiences are made to enjoy the music as it is, and not take music as only part of the film, but the film itself. It seems as if the music made the film what it eventually is like. We always find ourselves entering the world of their music, and enjoy the music just as the kids do.

I also loved the message brought across in the film. Music is probably all the children have left, and it is the passageway that will lead them to a brighter tomorrow. It is the element that keeps them living and gives them hope. It is about how, even when we have lost all the world to us, we can still find hope in the little things we love. It is about how life moves on when all seems hopeless, because with hard work, we will be rewarded with a future. It is also about how giving up isn’t an option, because whatever life gives us, we’ve got to make the best out of it.

The children had almost nothing left. Their homes are gone, most of them have lost their parents and siblings, and freedom is out of reach. But with their passion for music, and with the teachers’ trust in them, the kids glorified their lives and their tribal group’s lives in performing bravely in the competition.

The film has also made me cherish the peace in Singapore. We never learn to appreciate until we see people worse off than us. Now that I know, I treasure every moment of peace we have, and I hope that the kids back there will find hope in the music they play, and that the future is not gone because of the rebels. Music is going to bring them a long way through.

Cheers~~

P.S. You, is relative.

“I give up, I’d just leave on the train…”