In the past, when people say that emotions can be like a roller coaster ride- it goes up and down in a matter of minutes- I didn’t really understand it.
But well, I guess now I do. Although I’d rather not it be this way. For the past 2 weeks, my emotions has been riding the roller coaster ride of my life. Seriously, I can be kind of happy, then something done or something said (I can’t say what), make me down again. And when I meant down, I meant being down for hours. Happiness is only a matter of minutes. Sigh. But then it’s still a facade of being happy, right? Or least I try to do so.
If only I don’t think so much about that stuff. If only I could not think about that, and perhaps if only I was made to be some other way than I am right now, then at least this thing wont be bothering me. And perhaps if only my life was not this way, and a series of events did not lead to this eventual incident, or rather, trouble. But well, if life was full of “if only’s”, then nothing will ever be accomplished.
This mighty THING has been in my head for too long already, it’s beginning to control my emotions and my actions. It has got to go, but I can’t let it go. Maybe because I can’t bear to. Yeah, I think I can’t bear too. Sigh.
Pardon me for these, but I guess it’s not just the best time of my life. Hopefully all these will end soon, any the rainbows appear! haha
Anyway, my sister is away in Thailand and will be coming home next Friday. We aren’t the lovely dovely kind of siblings, but I do live her a lot, and I cant wait to see her!
I guess I’m still waiting for you, though.