Its the term break now, or year end holidays, whichever sounds more relaxing. I have quite a number of assignments to complete, but for the past 1 week, I have been having so much fun. Shopping, hanging out with friends, reading AC (finally!!!), reading this really cool Kodak magazine, and watching lots of movies- yes, MOVIES! The love of my life. I’m so addicted to them, in a good way I hope, that I just want to say -eh, screw assignments man, let’s go watch Movie! Hah! (Don’t worry, I’ll get my work done.)

But it just seems that I have this want, desire, NEED to watch movies. Lots and lots of them. It’s a love affair.

There are so many reasons I love to watch movies. Yes, it give me 2 hours of an out-of-the-world experience, it brings me away from the many worries and troubles that I have in this world, but no, not because I have nothing better to do. But movies are something I believe in.. cliche, well, yeah maybe.. Having learnt about film history I think I’ve pretty much learnt to appreciate movies so much more. Black and white movies? Bring it on! haha 🙂 I love them! Old films are good, really. 400 Blows, La Dolce Vita, The Third Man, etc are such fantastic films.

Movies are such beautiful collaboration between people from different backgrounds and different talents, who have one thing on common- the same dream. The same trust, hope, belief and dream for a story, and to make it possible together. Thats a beauty of film. Something that the filmmakers so much want to tell the world, a beauty that they want to express, a thought to share, a warning to proclaim, or a love to give.. Ok fine, money and fame plays a huge role too. Hah, it has to be admitted.

Movies are great! They are like another REAL world out there, where things happen. Alright, I’d probably have to get back to getting some work done soon. But wait- its Christmas soon, we have to have fun! HAHA!

Just a note: I love film. Film, film. Not digital, but film. I support it, and in a Kodak advertisement I saw, it has a line which reads: The fact is, when you shoot HD you hope it looks like film. No one ever shoots film hoping to emulate HD. This is so true! Support film! =D

It’s a love affair also because I want to say how much I love my family. I know I’m 18, its suppose to be the rebellious age when family sucks and the world pretty much just sucks. Sorry, that’s just stereotyping.

There are times when my parents NEVER, EVER, EVER understand me, times when they are so.. Arggghhhh.., and times where there are things I’ll NEVER tell my parents about. But I guess there are also times when I really learnt to appreciate me parents love for me.

I must say I’m pretty lucky that I grow up in a relatively ‘complete’ family, and I’m really thankful for the fact. This is a gift never to be taken for granted. I’ve never seen it all, but I’ve seen enough to learn to appreciate what I have.

My dad’s not perfect. There is seriously NOTHING I can talk to him about. Oh well, maybe other that school work I guess. Or when he asks me anything about movies.. Other than that, we can just stare at one another for hours and remain silent. My sis have so much more to talk to him than I do. But nonetheless, I know he loves me. When he sends me (very very super seldomly) to somewhere, he’ll always wait in the car to make sure that I get to my destination safely. Sometimes, I think it’s just so freaking retarded- like I’ll get kidnapped or what. But its an act of love, and deep in my heart, I feel it.

He buys apples for me, and let me eat the fresh ones while he eats the less fresh ones.

And my mom, well, I guess I have a little more things to say to her. Not ALL, but MORE. Haha.

Sometimes, I talk to her so much, she just wants me to shut up. She said to me this morning: Stop talking and yanking away! I cant stand it! But then, I see her smile (or I hope I did).

She says she hates it when I asks her to watch TV with me in the living room, but she’ll always be there- well, most of the time.

She sends me to the bus stop when she can, because she know its a freaking chore to travel 1.5 hours to school in a single trip everyday.

She loves to sleep early, but when my sis and I sneaks to her bedroom to chat at night, she’ll stay up late for us.

And today, she bought a jade pendant for me. Erm, well, yeah, its jade, and jades are for old people. But its kind of cool, i”l bring it where ever I go. It doesn’t look too old fashion though.. The jade costs quite alot, and usually when I want to buy a 20 bucks necklace for fun, she’ll nag the entire day and say how I can dry up her back account. But when she bought me that jade thingy, she did not complain. She says its good to wear jade, it is good for the body…

Well, no family is perfect. There are times I just want to leave the house and go to god knows where, but at the end of the day, the family will always be there for us. I can understand to a certain extend why some kids can’t stand their family, but I guess for now, I’d just say how much I love my family- grandparents, other relatives inc.

So you guys out there, treasure your family while you can. You’ll never know how much more time you’ll have with them.

It’s never too late..

Have a great Christmas, friends!

P.s. Ok, and you, dude, I’m still waiting…

~~All I want for Christmas, is YOU…….. ~~


Celebrate Life.

There are so many things I want to say, so pardon me for the long post.



I was recently doing some research for a school project when I went to watch Great Expectations (1998) again! Woohoo! The film remained so beautiful to me, even though it’s the second time I’m re-watching some scenes. See, Emmanuel Lubezki rocks! Hahaha!! And guess what- I think I’ve found a favourite composer. Mr….. Patrick Doyle! He’s born in UK, and was nominated for 2 Oscars.

Music isn’t usually an aspect of film that I would purposely take notice of, though I have to admit that it does subconsciously affect me and my perception of a film. But Patrick Doyle’s music stunned me. It captured me. I was adsorbed into the music of Great Expectations. There was just this something in the music that made me want to hear it over and over again. There is this magic in it that brings back memories when I hear it and watch the film. It compliments the film. Great Expectation’s music is as beautiful as its cinematography. Perfect.

Some lovely quote from my favourite scene:

“Are we happy now?”

“Anything that might be special in me, is you.”


Anyway, the 2009 Golden Globe nominees are out. And good news is, Burn After Reading is nominated for Best Motion Picture- Comedy or Musical! Yes Yes Yes!!!!!!! Congrats to the filmmakers. Call me biased, but I really do hope that BAR will win! Heh! Congrats to the other nominees, though I haven’t watch some of the films, since they are not out in Singapore yet. 😦

Oh well, may the best picture win.


And last week, my school had a free screening of 18 Grams of Love in Sinema Old School. Its about 2 husbands who think their wifes are cheating on them, and decided to test their wife’s faithfulness by getting each other to write letters to the other party’s wife. Oh my oh my, honestly, with all honesty in the world, it is the BEST local feature film I’ve seen. Story wise, it was smart. Not the usual 3 cries + 2 laughter formula other local filmmakers swear to, and make us eventually are so sick and tired of seeing.

Its set up, the ‘twist’, the way an event leads to another, the way the conflict was settles was brilliant. An intelligent plot. Cinematography was beautiful. Though the image was greatly was graded in post, I think they did capture the look they were looking for- like the film Amelie. And the editing was great! I particularly loved the part when the 2 couples quarreled in the hotel room. Editing, directing and acting complimented each other so well, it fitted to the mood of the film so perfectly. I would love to watch it a second time.

Do catch it if you can. 8/10. GREATLY recommended. Oh, and the main crew are from Ngee Ann Poly’s Film, Sound & Video. Great job guys! You are our inspiration! Haha.



I wished I still believe in Santa, the old dude who rewards good kids, but I think I don’t believe in him anymore. I mean, fantasy do mean something to me, I believe in it- but Santa? Maybe age killed him. Kids, enjoy Santa while you still have him. He is gone once you grow up. But he’s a great guy.

Terrorism (So off topic, I know.)


While the mourning for Lo Hwei Yen has died down- and thank god for that, at least her family are free from the press and public- I can’t help but need to make this comment:

So many people around me feel that her death is a pity cause she is pretty, she is a lawyer, she is recently married, and she enjoys life. Yes, I agree, she is very beautiful. I admire her intelligence and perseverance for becoming a lawyer.

But you know, one’s worth is not judged by what she is, but who she is. She is human, one with a life to live. Human, like you and I. Are we sad for her because of her qualities? Does being a lawyer add on to her worth as a human? Do we feel the pain just because she is so pretty? Hey, if, say, a cleaner was the victim instead. How would we respond to that? Will we experience the same amount of pain, and will we think his/her attack is equally wasted? Because of your answer is No, I question your love for life and people.

If we judge someone’s life and worth by his/her qualities, and not just because he/she is plainly human, I think there is seriously something wrong with our way of thinking. To me, every human is equal. All to be loved. Ok, the evil ones can burn in hell for all I care. I’m talking about humans. People who just want to live. Yes we all make mistakes, no one is perfect, but that doesn’t make us any less worth than any one you see walking in the streets.

But anyway, this is just my personal thoughts and feelings. No hard feelings. So let’s just celebrate life. Do what you think you have to do now, before it’s too late.

Life’s not worth the waste.


Its the festive seasons soon. Lets not get too emotional and serious here.

With all my love, friends- you guys have a happy holiday!!!!! =D

P.S. I might still be waiting for you, but I don’t know. I think I am, whoever you are. Though I hope I no longer am.

Happy holidays folks. Remember, celebrate life!


Kkkkk, alright, its time to write something happy eh.

Today, I finally managed to catch Body Of Lies. Its a nice story overall, though some parts are kind of ‘cliche’. like the girlfriend thing, wont say here in case I might spoil it. Haha. Plot wise, it was complicating, with so many characters and each one a significant role to play. But well, Leonardo DiCaprio didn’t disappoint me with his acting and Alexander Witt’s cinematography was pretty good too! But then again, the colour scheme for locations are so often seen before, like in Traffic. Oh well, if they didn’t use the style, it might just make it more difficult to follow the story. It was a pretty good film overall..

Alright, I’m mot complaining here, just saying. Lessons learnt, prices paid. Today hasn’t been a good day, but my mood is not spoilt nonetheless.

This morning, just an hour before our non fict pitch, the Powerpoint CRASHED! Totally, data all gone, it freaking died. And I didn’t backup the Powerpoint, I feel so bad for my group 😦 Class started at 10am, and thank god we weren’t the first to present. So we had like, say, 1 hour to REDO the entire presentation! Kind of managed to get it done, but it didn’t look as good as the one we did previously. Sigh, this is, well, fate. Ok, maybe not, I overlooked the backing up of files. Me bad. And we didn’t have time to rehearse for the pitch, and ended up with a…. C. Ahhhhh crap. 25% gone, poof, just like that. Ah well, no use complaining, life goes on, its not the end of the world, lesson learnt. The hard way. And I’m feeling soooo sorry I didnt back up copies. Sigh.

Anyway, after lunch, we had to shoot a project with the Business & Accountancy School. Things were kind of last minute, and everyone didn’t have much of a clue what’s going on. Then, the weather played games with us. Freak la. First, it was so hot. Humid. We were all sweating like mad. Then it cooled down. Wooh! BUT, it started to RAIN, then POUR. And cats and dogs suddenly fell from the sky. Ok, i’m kidding. But it POURED! LIKE CRAZY. So the continuity was all off, WS was bright sunny say, CU’s were all dark and gloomy. Damn. Amount of footage was a problem too, so now our only hope is that editing can salvage the situation. Its so wrong to rely on editing only, but I hope things work out fine. If not, reshoot? Man, I have no idea.

Now this is exciting: After the shoot, a couple of friends and I went to watch Body Of Lies. Full of projects, but I guess we needed a break. We went to buy tickets at Golden Village, and I left my laptop on the counter. After getting the ticket, we all left, with me forgetting my laptop! OH MY GOODNESS. How on earth can I ever forget this???? And I only found out after dinner. OH MY OH MY. Ying and I search Mos, but no one saw any laptop. Then I remembered leaving it at the counter of GV, so Ying and I rushed up. Thank god it was there, if not I really would not have known what to do, seriously. Thanks man, Ying, for accompanying me!

Wow. 2 major, never-to-be made mistake made today. I guess I’ve learnt my lesson, really. I’d probably live the rest of my life remembering to back up my files and never, ever, leave anything behind. Ahhhh, lesson learnt, prices paid. The hard way.

Ok guys, I promise never to do it again. Its a promise made to myself and all my friends. Especially the backing up of files one, man, I’ll never not do it again.

Back to doing project. Nights.


Fate or Destiny?

Our life. Fate or destiny? You decide.

I remember when I was in secondary school, a teacher once said that fate is something ‘bad’ that happens to you, and it is caused by a series of unfortunate events, a ‘no choice’ kind of thing. Destiny, on the other hand, is something divine, a blessing in a way, something good that is sealed the moment we are born.

Well, if you were to ask me, I’d say my life is more of ‘fate’ than ‘destiny’. Things don’t always go my way, and even if they do, they are things that I don’t really hold dear to. Oh well, I think it may give this ‘loser appeal’, but guess what- yup, its’ ‘fate’.

I’m still waiting for something ‘destined’ to appear. They say miracles do happen, eh? Well, Let one happen to me, please. I’m waiting for a miracle (Can’t say what, haha). A twist in ‘fate’ and a beginning of ‘destiny’.

I want to continue hoping, but I guess sometimes too much of hopes can be tiring. We keep hoping, but if things never happen, hope becomes a burden. It drains your energy, instead of providing you with it. It makes waking up difficult, instead of making it exciting. So it’s true that too much of something can be bad.

And people also say “be careful what you wish for, because you might just get it all.” Hah, if only. If only I can get what I wish for, I don’t know, but I’d probably have no regrets.

Anyway, speaking of fate, live and hope, my heart goes out to Ms Lo Hwei Yen, who was killed in a terrorist attack in India. No one wanted this to happen, and it has indeed broke the hearts of Singaporeans, much more her loved ones. It was senseless murder, one that shouldn’t even happen. It made no sense to me.

Terrorist treat in Singapore is REAL. Anything can happen, anytime. While we are all mourning for her death, I guess it’s time we start to treasure our lives and the people around us. If there’s any dreams unfulfilled, or things undone, do it now, or it might just be too late for regrets.

Quit these muse.. I have something more cheerful to say:

Can’t wait to watch Body Of Lies! Leonardo DiCaprio never fails to impress me with his acting, and Ridley Scott’s a cool director. I absolutely love his “American Gangster “, “Gladiator” and “Hannibal” among others.   I’ve read about this film in the American Cinematographer magazine, and it has definitely increased my want to watch this film. Can’t wait to check out Alexander Witt’s cinematography. This is one of his first few films he crewed as DP. Hopefully all the priceless experiences as Second Unit DP and in the camera crew will be of great help in his role as DP. I have confidence in Witt! Hope it doesn’t disappoint me. I need some excitement in my life. Haha!

Back to reality (out of movie fantasies I meant), I still hope miracles do happen, and I’m waiting for one to happen.

And guess what, yes, I’m still waiting for you, whoever you may be.

Let’s hope this hope don’t become a burden, although it may be somewhere there already.