Just a short post, before I can finally sleep..
I’ve been having dreams, 3 so far, in fact. Literally. Dreams of what I hoped reality could have been… Ah damn, how stupid. Dreams that, well, will probably not come true anymore. Maybe that’s why they are called dreams. Call me stupid, but oh wells. I probably am.
How did this start in the first place? I never wanted it to happen this way. I guess that’s how the gods like to make fun of me. Well, thanks. Is there any explaining to do? Doubts to be cleared? Dirt to be washed away? Things to be pieced back together? Thoughts to be straightened out? I hope.
I guess I’m in a clamer mood now.. Things are going on slower. I guess its better this way. I can think a little less.. Feel a little more. No, wait. Feeling ain’t the best thing right now. Ah, well.. What is?
I honestly don’t know why is this affecting me so much.. Not so much of what happened, but the outcome of it.. Heavenly bodies up there, do someting! Hmm, on second thoughts, maybe not. I’m pretty much screwed enough. Hah. When fate intervined. So, well, life goes on. Ain’t exactly in the most bubbly mood, and I don’t forsee myself any happier than I am in some time to come..
But as they say, life’s a road we all must tread. Time passes as they have to, so we’ll just make the best of it. At the end of the day, time still has got a job to do…
P.S. Ah damn, I’m tired. Still thinking, poundering, wishing, hoping, feeling.