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Interesting Read


A very interesting read by Nate Pyle, Confronting the Lie: God won’t give you more than you can handle.


I used to love this phrase, “God won’t give you more than you can handle.” It gave me strength. It ‘taught’ me that God is putting me through these sufferings because He knows I can handle it. But, the Bible never said it. These words were made by men, and God Himself have warned us that false prophesies will arise. So, what does the Bible have got to say about suffering?


For we do not want you to be ignorant, brothers and sisters, of the affliction we experienced in Asia. For we were so utterly burdened beyond our strength that we despaired of life itself. Indeed, we felt that we had received the sentence of death. But that was to make us rely not on ourselves but on God who raises the dead (2 Cor 1:8,9,)


God told us that He put us through these sufferings, not because He knows we are strong. He made us suffer, because He wants to teach us to NEED him. When we feel that we can no longer take it, when we feel like we are desperately losing, when we feel sorrowful, helpless and weak, God wants us to wait on Him. He wants us to need him, and He is teaching us faith. He is teaching us that strength comes from above, and when all seems hopeless, we, as humans, can only wait. Wait in faith, knowing that our God is there, and although we will not receive an answer now (or never will), it is by His love and grace that He is putting us through this. Wait for Him to do something, to pick us up and to heal us.


I am not saying that we should lie around and wait. But it’s about having the peace in us, that while we struggle, we know He will come. It is about faith.


I am experiencing pain. This year isn’t exactly the best year of my life. 2012 ended bad, and 2013 started out worse. I honestly don’t know what God’s plan is for me. Sometimes, I question Him. I question myself- have I done something wrong? I haven’t got an answer from Him. Sometimes, I become impatient. God, what are You putting me through? I don’t know. But He is putting me through suffering not because He knows I can handle it, He is putting me through these, because He is building faith in me. He is making me strong. He is teaching me things I would never know about myself, and things I would never have been able to pull through, if not for our Almighty God.


I am not healed. I still need His healing hands. I don’t have the answers, I am still waiting. Sometimes, I get tired. Many times, I become disappointed and I feel like everyone around me is progressing, but not me. Everyone is realizing their dreams, but I am still stuck. I feel in despair. Maybe I made mistakes? Taken paths I shouldn’t have taken? Maybe I am just not cut out for it? God, why am I waiting? What are you keeping me from?


I don’t have the answers. I probably won’t have the answers tomorrow. Or the day after. I don’t know when will the truth be out. And it is very, very difficult to say this, but I am waiting. I am taking a step at a time, and I am waiting for God to show me His plan. Because it is His plans that will prosper me. He won’t harm me. So, although I am suffering now, although i feel so useless and hopeless, all I can do is put in my best efforts in what I am doing, and patiently, and faithfully wait.


God, I will question you. I will fail, because I am weak. I will feel lousy about myself, and insecure about so many things. I will disappoint you, because I am a sinner. But teach me to wait. Give me patience and faith. Faith that You will bless me with your grace.

I need You, Lord. I cannot do this on my own. After so many years, I am no where. I am lost. But You, my Shepherd, lead me to where I have to be.


Patience and faith. Amen.

Being Me.


I never asked for the world. I just ask to be loved. Someday, you’ll find me.


Yes girls, act like ladies.



Don’t hang on to things that are not worth it. More importantly (girl friend, I know you wont see this, but I still got to say) dont hurt yourself over this. Please, dont. I know it’s not easy, just try..

You Lift Me Up when I am Down

Lord, may I cast all my anxieties upon you. I am scared of the future- but may I have no fear, because You have plans for me, plans to prosper me.


I have faith, because I know You love me. Please guard my way, that I will not wander away from You anymore.


It is all in Your hands. I will not fail.


“Then they cried to the LORD in their trouble, and he delivered them from their distress. He made the storm be still, and the waves of the sea were hushed. Then they were glad that the waters were quiet, and he brought them to their desired haven.” Psalm 107:28-30


In times of troubles, we cry out to our Lord, and He will deliver. Yes, He will. In His name, it will be done.


I almost teared when i read this verse. They cried to the Lord in their trouble, and He delivered them from their distress. Sometimes we feel so alone, like nothing is going on right. I don’t know about tomorrow, and I am scared. I feel so lost, like I am wandering around aimlessly. But I know I have a goal, and that is to please and trust God. I guess that’s where I get my strength- from Him.


God, maybe I cannot literally see you. Maybe I cannot listen to what you have to tell me directly. Maybe I cannot feel your warmth and hugs when I desperately cry out for You. But with faith, I know You are here. You have never left me, haven’t You?


You may not be physically here, but You have sent friends here on earth to care for me and to listen to me. It’s such a blessing, and I thank You for them. And I know that it is not that You don’t want to be here for me, or cannot be here for me. You can do things that we humans can never understand. It is just not time yet. I know that, because You told me so.


I may be feeling miserable now. Teared again and again. But God, You know my weaknesses, and You know my strength. I know You are putting me through these for a reason- I guess thats what faith is all about. Giving thanks when I am facing troubles I would never want to face. You know I can do it, and You put me through, knowing that I will grow and learn. And whatever the outcome, my faith lies in the believe that You have a better plan for me. Yes, I make mistakes. I have sinned. But You have plans to prosper me and not to harm me.


And in that, I place my faith in You.


Thank you for putting me through these troubles right now. It sucks, I’m hurt, and very tired. But thank You, Lord.


Maybe what wouldn’t work out now will hurt me, but I will thank you in the future. I know I will, because You are God.


I still remember the past. Memories, I guess… There are still events, occurrences and places that bring back memories- pleasant or otherwise.


I dont think we have to forget the past to move on. We just have to lear to accept it.


They say, every one comes with baggages. We have to find the person who is willing to lift them away from our backs. And for this, I think only time will tell. Until then, things are probably not going to be exactly easy…


I can wait- yes. But someday…


Anyway. I cant wait to start my internship. I really hope I’ll do a good job, and learn as much as I can from the production. Hopefully, it’s going to be a good change in my current life- something I really need right now. And I am so sure I can learn so much more during that 1 month than I ever did in school. School and work is indeed different… Really looking forward. Times are going to be tough, but if I can survive this, I can add it on to my little ‘bucket list’ and ‘personal achievement’. Really, really cannot wait! As they say, when the going gets tough….


Once my internship/shoot starts, things are going to be different. I have set my mind to it, and I will make it happen.. It’s going to make living easier : ) Yes, I’ll depend on myself for the change. I hope I can do it emotionally. All I need is to remember not to look back….. It hasnt been the easiest thing so far.


And I have the sudden inspiration to read the book of Romans. Hoping to start tonight 🙂 God, guide me. Make me Yours.